Sonny's Blues

First off, this is definitely one of my most favorite pieces of literature we've had to read in class so far. I could actually relate in a way. I've had to watch my oldest brother go through things because of drugs that I would never wish on anyone. Like Sonny, he's a kind and smart guy who could do so many things in life, but for some reason chose to "kill himself". I found sad how Sonny explained the feeling and reason behind using heroin. I pray this wasn't the reason for my brother using meth and other drugs. It was like he used it because there was no other way around it. Almost as if it chose him instead of him choosing it. Isabel kind of reminded me of myself because even though I would know my brother was high on nights he'd come to visit I would pretend as if nothing happened and just show him love and try to just talk to him about life. In a sense, Sonny's brother reminded me of myself too. I want so bad to "save" my brother and to never let him fall back into the drugs again (considering he's out of it), but I've had to move on with my own life too. I feel as if when I see him again he'll be a completely different person, just like Sonny was to his brother. There are times I've wanted to scream at my brother for doing what he's doing to himself and to his daughters, but I know it won't solve anything. I believe in the end Sonny cleaned up. He may not have gotten completely away from the people and the night life, but the drugs, I think he kept away from has much as he can. At least I'd like to think so. It makes me feel like if Sonny could then my brother can too.